She...... and Him

Just sitting here listening to She&Him. Bored out of my mind and lacking true thoughts. I don't think I've actually had a real thought other than something about dishes or laundry.... Argh! Is it too much to ask to have a semi-intellectual day? Thought of painting but no one understands my art. Really! I wish it weren't true. Is it a bad thing that I like chaos in darkness? Haha at that rate I should just be painting a canvas black and calling it good. I hate that I can't really think during the day, but at night when I'm making a sad attempt at sleep my mind starts reeling. I suppose it's just called being unemployed and not needing to use your brain. Stupid!
I don't even have any events or such to talk about. Geez, I give up.

TWLOHA

This is just a simple little thing. I put this on my sites and every time someone visits my page the sponsor donates money to your cause. I strongly urge you to do this and even more so to support TWLOHA. They are doing such great things and every little thing you can do helps!

Tires, Movies, and Love

Is it bad that I'm totally self conscious about going to a tire repair shop? I don't know what it is, but I totally freak out when I need something fixed with my car. Is it that I fear they may try to rip me off? I know that's part of it. But I don't know why I just absolutely hate going. I have to, as I cannot even leave my house at this time for the inability to fix my tire to even go anywhere. So I blog. haha. Is it a better alternative?

I just totally watched Zack and Miri Make a Porno. Loved it! But if I have to see anymore boobs or penis' today I might cry. I hit my overload of inappropriate-ness.... But it's funny all the same. I think we have all been to the brink of some form of desperateness. Right now I'm desperate for a job....Porno? I think not. But maybe I might have to if this keeps up.... Anyway.....

I feel lame that this is basically how I'm spending my time.... watching movies and almost writing a quasi-review..... bah! Maybe I should actually look for a job.... I need to, I know I should, yet here I am. I hate looking for a job.... I hate that basically every job I look at either wants experience or a college education. I have neither. I have blog writing skills, does that count? I wouldn't even call this a skill... more like a lack of better things to do. Get a life, you say? Meh.... I've had a life and it got me nowhere, so now I'm a computer geek expressing my opinions on anything and everything.

Earlier today I was just browsing around on some forums and found one bashing TWLOHA. I almost wanted to cry. Is your life so miserable that you have to go and try to ruin the one good thing for some of us. A support system. People who understand. Wow, just wow. Kinda like going and bashing therapy or self-help. Are we the ones searching for help, or are you? I believe the person talking crap was also saying that TWLOHA was just a way for them to bring the youth or "scene-kids" as they said to religion. I tell you what, they do nothing of the sort. But if God is what helps a person get through their problems then more power to them. I can personally say that God has helped me in so many ways I couldn't even begin to list them. It's not like cutting is just the cool thing to do now, it's an actual illness. One that I and several others suffer with and it's a daily issue.

We are all searching for something. The question is what? And it's different for everyone. God and TWLOHA helped me. Don't believe me? Try it on for size. See what it can do in you.

Music and Such Things

I have never been a big blogger or anything but I have found it's time. Maybe as my way to reach out or just to get some things off my chest. But I must say. I went on a little cd shopping spree yesterday. I was bound and determined to purchase the new Between The Trees album. I have listened to them for quite a while now and even for them being so young and not really being a band for that long, they seem to have evolved and have gone through so much, just in the past year or two. I discovered them by going to see Mae. They were supporting them on tour. I couldn't have been more impressed.
I also had to buy the Anchor & Braille album. Such beautiful music. Stephen Christian can do no wrong. Also, I suggest his book The Orphaned Anythings to everyone. So well written and something we can all relate to at some point in our lives. I love it. I could relate to most parts. Just was so blunt and honest. Kinda inside every one of our heads.
I wish I could just write down every thought that I have throughout a day. Would be like a weird poem or kinda like song lyrics, I think, at least. I feel it's interesting, our thoughts, that is. Do we all wonder what everyone else is thinking? Do we all want to get into each other's heads? I would like to know that I'm not the only one thinking some of the things I think.
"Baby, I wasn't made for this world." - Between The Trees