Ummm... What the hell folks?

Not gonna lie, this kinda pissed me off. Going for a drive down one of my favorite roads out in the "country" and I see this. Some had just tossed a computer on the side of the road. On the other side, someone had dumped a couch. Kinda disappointed in how people treat our land. Really?

Anyway, I just really wanted to post some of my photography. This, being the first of several of my pictures I'd like the world to see. Hope you enjoy! Feedback would be much appreciated!

I Hope I'm Not Stepping Over An Invisible Line

Like the title says, I hope I'm not stepping over any lines. I'm not going to talk about music or anything like that, though there is plenty to talk about. But today, I'm shifting gears a little.

I work for a credit card company, in the call center, and I'll be honest, I hate it. Today was a little more complicated than usual. I had received a phone call from a woman, calling for her son's account. I thought when she called in that her son could not find his credit card, nothing out of the ordinary. Then as I'm asking if I could speak with her son to verify to speak with her about the account, she then told me that it is not the case but that she just wanted to get a temporary block on the card. She told me that her son had been out fishing just a couple days ago and had fallen into the river, then being carried downstream, and that they had not found his body yet. The second she tells me this, my heart immediately went out to her. I don't know the woman or her son, but i wanted to give her a hug. I have no idea what she is going through, I would never understand that kind of pain. I then made a note to myself of her son's name so that I could then look and see online what the story was and get updated. I don't know why I feel the need to check up on it, or even why I feel concerned. I just feel suddenly involved. One thing I did not like, was when I googled his name for any news stories, there is a link to a facebook page dedicated to him, harmless enough, right? I then check out the page out of pure curiosity and see that everyone is already talking about him like he is gone. I find that upsetting. It's like they've given up hope somehow. Who knows, he could be out there in the wilderness fighting for survival and his friends on facebook are talking about how they'll miss him. I guess I see it more as, I would want people to look forward to seeing me again. Maybe not in the heaven/hell sense, but more as hoping that I'll be home again. Why do we do that? Give up hope. Expect the worst. End things before they're truly over. I hate it. It's like dooming a loved one when they are sick and dying, by already talking about them being gone. Why don't we enjoy the time we have with them? Wouldn't that allow them to at least die a little bit happy? I'm all doom and gloom by nature, but I never sit and anticipate a loved one's death. I don't get it. I guess that's all I really say for now. I just wanted to share the story. Maybe get some input from others. Is it only me that has a problem with this?

New Year!

I wish I could say that I'm sad to see 2010 go... But honestly, I couldn't be happier! The things that have happened and that I've gone through the past year I could live without. I never wanted to fall back into my depression. I never wanted to hate my life again. Yet, here I am. A year of mistakes. But sadly, ones that I can't really learn from. I'm just stuck with what I've done and trying to recover. My best friend and I have decided that this will be our year and things will turn around. I sure hope so.... I can't keep up like I have been.
New Years resolutions: Stop drinking, lose weight, quit smoking, STOP CUTTING!, be nicer. Well there's others, but I don't think I want to air ALL my dirty laundry online. But I will say, my goal for this year is to find a new therapist and finally get over my issues. The zero self confidence. Hating life just because I can. Learn to forgive my sister. Learn to put up with my dad and forgive him as well. Well, that's just a tiny bit of my new year. Also, I plan to blog more often. I need to learn to get things off my chest rather than stewing in misery till I explode. Not good! Peace and happy new year!

Listen to noiremoons Playlist

Ummm well.... hi

So, wow, it's been ages since I've posted on here! Lack of computer access, don't judge me. No albums to really review. Just talking. Oh no! And so it begins. haha. So weird I just don't have a lot to say anymore. Most of what I'm feeling is a little negative.... ok, really negative. Living with your sister when you already don't get along is just a horrible idea! Don't ever try it! I don't know what I was thinking.... that we could build a friendship?! Ha! Friends don't treat people the way she does. I don't want to bash her. But golly, it just never ends! Where does it end?! I am someone to be respected just as much as anyone else! I contribute just the same as her! So why am I treated inferior? It's tough posting stuff like this online.... hoping that I'm not judged or criticized.... years and years of negative reinforcement I guess....ok, well for not wanting to bash I've sure done a good job at it.... I'm out....

I Think I'm a Little Bit.....

Yet another album review basically. I have recently joined the world where Lykke Li is, hands down, amazing. The lyrics are so heartfelt and can be true for almost anyone's personal story. "I think I'm a little bit.... in love with you. but only if you're a little bit... in love with me." Wow, just wow. absolute perfection. Another kind of lyric in track 1 of Youth Novels, "Melodies & Desires", is so metaphorically fantastic I really want to get it tattooed, "Love is a melody, desire is the key, love is the symphony, come sing a little with me." Tattoo worthy? Yes I think so.

My Dinosaur Life

Ok on a completely lighter and totally ecstatic note, brand new Motion City Soundtrack album just came out this week. I'd be lying if I said it was absolutely stellar. To be honest, the album was a total let down to me. Their past three albums are completely amazing and I guess you could say I just like songs with a bunch of metaphors, since the new on is full of truths not hidden behind witty phrases. So to say the least it was quite disappointing after I built it up for a few years. Now don't get me wrong, I will still be a huge fan of their work... i'm just hoping this is one hiccup in a long stream of amazing work.