New Year!

I wish I could say that I'm sad to see 2010 go... But honestly, I couldn't be happier! The things that have happened and that I've gone through the past year I could live without. I never wanted to fall back into my depression. I never wanted to hate my life again. Yet, here I am. A year of mistakes. But sadly, ones that I can't really learn from. I'm just stuck with what I've done and trying to recover. My best friend and I have decided that this will be our year and things will turn around. I sure hope so.... I can't keep up like I have been.
New Years resolutions: Stop drinking, lose weight, quit smoking, STOP CUTTING!, be nicer. Well there's others, but I don't think I want to air ALL my dirty laundry online. But I will say, my goal for this year is to find a new therapist and finally get over my issues. The zero self confidence. Hating life just because I can. Learn to forgive my sister. Learn to put up with my dad and forgive him as well. Well, that's just a tiny bit of my new year. Also, I plan to blog more often. I need to learn to get things off my chest rather than stewing in misery till I explode. Not good! Peace and happy new year!

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So, wow, it's been ages since I've posted on here! Lack of computer access, don't judge me. No albums to really review. Just talking. Oh no! And so it begins. haha. So weird I just don't have a lot to say anymore. Most of what I'm feeling is a little negative.... ok, really negative. Living with your sister when you already don't get along is just a horrible idea! Don't ever try it! I don't know what I was thinking.... that we could build a friendship?! Ha! Friends don't treat people the way she does. I don't want to bash her. But golly, it just never ends! Where does it end?! I am someone to be respected just as much as anyone else! I contribute just the same as her! So why am I treated inferior? It's tough posting stuff like this online.... hoping that I'm not judged or criticized.... years and years of negative reinforcement I guess....ok, well for not wanting to bash I've sure done a good job at it.... I'm out....

I Think I'm a Little Bit.....

Yet another album review basically. I have recently joined the world where Lykke Li is, hands down, amazing. The lyrics are so heartfelt and can be true for almost anyone's personal story. "I think I'm a little bit.... in love with you. but only if you're a little bit... in love with me." Wow, just wow. absolute perfection. Another kind of lyric in track 1 of Youth Novels, "Melodies & Desires", is so metaphorically fantastic I really want to get it tattooed, "Love is a melody, desire is the key, love is the symphony, come sing a little with me." Tattoo worthy? Yes I think so.

My Dinosaur Life

Ok on a completely lighter and totally ecstatic note, brand new Motion City Soundtrack album just came out this week. I'd be lying if I said it was absolutely stellar. To be honest, the album was a total let down to me. Their past three albums are completely amazing and I guess you could say I just like songs with a bunch of metaphors, since the new on is full of truths not hidden behind witty phrases. So to say the least it was quite disappointing after I built it up for a few years. Now don't get me wrong, I will still be a huge fan of their work... i'm just hoping this is one hiccup in a long stream of amazing work.

Frightening Truth

In the past weeks there have been reports about a group of men, one of which from Independence, MO, that would kidnap women and hold them hostage as basically sex slaves. Two sisters came forward and reported that they were kidnapped by this man in Independence and were forced to be in fake marriages to his sons so they could "consummate" the marriage. It scary that there is really no one out there you can trust. What happened to the times where people didn't have to lock their doors and children could run freely outside with no worries? I won't even go anywhere alone in the evenings, because you just never know. I hate not being able to trust people and not knowing who's out there to hurt you.
The fact that our world is no longer safe, scares the crap out of me. I'm scared to date because you never know what kind of creeps are out there. I don't go shopping alone anymore because of the girls that got kidnapped and murdered just going to Target. What is our world coming to? We shouldn't be scared of our own communities.

Loving Ghosts

Ok, so I give in... this has pretty much turned into my itty-bitty blog about music.... I can handle that I suppose..... Cause now my obsession is Vedera- Stages. I have always loved Vedera and the new album has been a long time coming. "It hurts me to hold you this close, it hurts me, cause I have to let it go." Ok, I'm a nerd, I'm not a 100% positive on those lyrics but are very close trust me! Not only is Vedera an amazing band, but they are an amazing band from Kansas City, which is impressive all on it's own. Kansas can produce some good music, but it's rare and short lived. I remember several years ago, there was a band from Lawrence, Jade Raven. Loved them. But couldn't find the success they were looking for so they broke up.
Anyway, I'm thinking I should find a way to turn this into a way to really reach out to people like myself... Even though by the looks of things, I'm reaching a whole one person.... haha. I rock! I dunno... Guess I need to brainstorm... rather than just using this for an outlet for myself.....