I'm just gonna keep at it

This picture is extremely poor quality. Got it with my phone. Just thought the sky was extremely pretty with what I think are called vapor trails in the sunset. I wanted to share. Not much to go into detail about, just hope someone actually starts reading this.

A Part of Me

So, this is something I haven't quite done yet. I mean, I have, in bits and pieces. But, this is something that is part of me. This is the park square in my town. I have spent so much time here over the course of my life. Between going to the pharmacy to get the best chocolate milkshake ever and sitting here on a bench enjoying just being there. To going to the library a block away and picking up some books to read by the fountain. A friend and I would walk to the square on sundays during the fall to avoid football. My mom and dad love the Chiefs, even though they are complete losers. Just a lot of memories here and I had the opportunity to take this picture in the fall. Unfortunatey, I usually stick to black and white but hopefully, after some digging I will find the color version of this to show just how amazing this place can be in the fall. Til next time....

Another One (Even though this seems pointless...)

This would have to be one of my favorite concert pictures I have taken. This is Brad from the band, Between The Trees. Unfortunately, he is no longer a part of the band, but it's still pretty cool all the same. I had the luxury of meeting them a couple years ago and they were pretty cool dudes. They really enjoyed what they did. And, let me tell you, I would too if I had enough musical talent to be in a band. But, what I love about this picture is how you can plainly see that he is absolutely into the music. That it actually makes him feel something. At the time, I had heard of TWLOHA but was not all too familiar with them and what exactly they did. During their set, right before playing "The Way She Feels," they explained how the song was basically about TWLOHA and Rachel Yohe. I found it amazing, considering I suffered from much of what they talked about, the self injury, depression... all that good stuff. I then proceeded to go home and look into TWLOHA and everything they do. It was the best thing I could have ever done. Now, I'm still a work in progress on that one, and many other things. But, they helped. And for that I will be eternally grateful. Thank you Between The Trees, TWLOHA, Rachel (for sharing your story), and Jamie for spreading the word and helping so many people.

Umm... Does Anyone Read This?

Ok people! I would like some feedback of some sort. I am posting this for a reason. Even if the feedback is negative I'd be ok with it. I just want to know what people outside my family thinks. Photography is my passion. And I want to know someone is seeing it. I don't trust those online photo contests. There is not much out there for us, non-portrait taking photographers. I would like to get a studio, but if I totally blow at this I don't want to waste my time or money. Please if anyone reads this, tell me what you think!!

More on the Photography Front

This photograph is from a few years ago, when I had the pleasure of seeing one of my many favorite bands, Mae. They had done an acoustic set after their main show. They took requests, and I just sat there in awe of their talent. Unfortunately, they are no longer together as a band. But I'm glad I have a few photographs and all their albums to remember how amazing they were. I have the pleasure of meeting Dave Elkins, the lead singer pictured here, and he is such a cool guy. Share a decent conversation, take a pic with him, and about pee my pants in excitement. I just wanted to share this, as it is something I look back and remember how happy they make me. We all need that every once in a while.

I don't have a good title for this one, just please read

I don't really have a lot to say regarding this photograph... I drive by this tree every single day and it has always stuck out to me. One of those trees so old, you know it has seen a lot of interesting things over the course of several years. Makes me wish I could have witnessed those things. Or to at least hear the stories. I've never had much of an interest in history but it's something that's been growing on me more and more. But would we not all want to know? It'd be intriguing to say the least.

Ummm... What the hell folks?

Not gonna lie, this kinda pissed me off. Going for a drive down one of my favorite roads out in the "country" and I see this. Some had just tossed a computer on the side of the road. On the other side, someone had dumped a couch. Kinda disappointed in how people treat our land. Really?

Anyway, I just really wanted to post some of my photography. This, being the first of several of my pictures I'd like the world to see. Hope you enjoy! Feedback would be much appreciated!

I Hope I'm Not Stepping Over An Invisible Line

Like the title says, I hope I'm not stepping over any lines. I'm not going to talk about music or anything like that, though there is plenty to talk about. But today, I'm shifting gears a little.

I work for a credit card company, in the call center, and I'll be honest, I hate it. Today was a little more complicated than usual. I had received a phone call from a woman, calling for her son's account. I thought when she called in that her son could not find his credit card, nothing out of the ordinary. Then as I'm asking if I could speak with her son to verify to speak with her about the account, she then told me that it is not the case but that she just wanted to get a temporary block on the card. She told me that her son had been out fishing just a couple days ago and had fallen into the river, then being carried downstream, and that they had not found his body yet. The second she tells me this, my heart immediately went out to her. I don't know the woman or her son, but i wanted to give her a hug. I have no idea what she is going through, I would never understand that kind of pain. I then made a note to myself of her son's name so that I could then look and see online what the story was and get updated. I don't know why I feel the need to check up on it, or even why I feel concerned. I just feel suddenly involved. One thing I did not like, was when I googled his name for any news stories, there is a link to a facebook page dedicated to him, harmless enough, right? I then check out the page out of pure curiosity and see that everyone is already talking about him like he is gone. I find that upsetting. It's like they've given up hope somehow. Who knows, he could be out there in the wilderness fighting for survival and his friends on facebook are talking about how they'll miss him. I guess I see it more as, I would want people to look forward to seeing me again. Maybe not in the heaven/hell sense, but more as hoping that I'll be home again. Why do we do that? Give up hope. Expect the worst. End things before they're truly over. I hate it. It's like dooming a loved one when they are sick and dying, by already talking about them being gone. Why don't we enjoy the time we have with them? Wouldn't that allow them to at least die a little bit happy? I'm all doom and gloom by nature, but I never sit and anticipate a loved one's death. I don't get it. I guess that's all I really say for now. I just wanted to share the story. Maybe get some input from others. Is it only me that has a problem with this?

New Year!

I wish I could say that I'm sad to see 2010 go... But honestly, I couldn't be happier! The things that have happened and that I've gone through the past year I could live without. I never wanted to fall back into my depression. I never wanted to hate my life again. Yet, here I am. A year of mistakes. But sadly, ones that I can't really learn from. I'm just stuck with what I've done and trying to recover. My best friend and I have decided that this will be our year and things will turn around. I sure hope so.... I can't keep up like I have been.
New Years resolutions: Stop drinking, lose weight, quit smoking, STOP CUTTING!, be nicer. Well there's others, but I don't think I want to air ALL my dirty laundry online. But I will say, my goal for this year is to find a new therapist and finally get over my issues. The zero self confidence. Hating life just because I can. Learn to forgive my sister. Learn to put up with my dad and forgive him as well. Well, that's just a tiny bit of my new year. Also, I plan to blog more often. I need to learn to get things off my chest rather than stewing in misery till I explode. Not good! Peace and happy new year!